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sudah lama gak ngepost hehehe sekali ngepost gak pernah gak galau.
dua post di bawah sebenernya bakalan aku buat lagu. tapi belum nemu irama yg tepat. jadi entar2 aja deh hehehe

i wanna be

i'm just a boy who have a lot of thing that i wanna be
if you're a clown fish, i'll be an anemon
if you're a bird, i'll be your nest
i just wanna be something that keeps you safe and soundly
and if you'll be mine, i'll be yours

these words come out y itself
i didn't even try so hard
your smile, is the soul of my finger
makes me want to write 'bout you more and more
and you didn't have to believe, but you only have to feel

lay down your head on my shoulder, and you will feel so harm
tell me about anything you had met, and i'll reply like i've been there with you
it's kinda weird, but it's real
you didn't have to believe, you just have to feel
and had you ever know that i do like you, dear?

sad

the sky was fulled by the clouds when i started to think about you
the atmosphere getting colder, as my heart felt about you
it wouldn't rain, so does my eyes
no more tear, no more fear, cause it's just a clouds
and i didn't know why

my heart skip a beat
i didn't actually did
it just skip the best moment i ever had
when i'm feeling sad

close your eyes, then
let the water gives its freshment
why are you here?
i didn't really want, i just got trapped in here
i can't stop to think 'bout you
i can't stop to whisp 'bout yo
i didn't really know why i'm feeling so sad

Tentang Dia

dia
dia ya? dia yang namanya tidak boleh disebut. dia yg aku tulis disini akan aku tulis sedemikian rupa sampai tidak ada seorangpun yang akan merasa selain dia.

dia
masih satu tahun di bawahku. bisa dibilang cantik. secara personality menarik. aku suka. bukan secara fisik. meskipun suatu saat nanti kamu tongos aku gak peduli. memang taurus sepertinya punya daya tarik tersendiri. tapi dia itu kebo sebenernya, bukan banteng.

dia
aku merasa bersyukur telah dipertemukan dengan dia. meskipun bukan pertemuan kontak mata secara langsung, dan bisa dibilang tidak sengaja, aku merasa dia ada yg "beda".
ini lucu. sangat lucu. bagaimana kamu merasa sangat "klop" dengan orang yang kalo misalnya aku ditanyain "yang mana orangnya?" aku gak bakalan bisa menjawab dengan cara menunjuk orang yang aku maksud yang mana.
aku hanya yakin, kalau di ujung sana, di tempat dimana dia bisa menerima pesan singkatku tiap malam, ada orang dengan namanya. yang selalu membalas beberapa pesan yang aku kirimkan

dan dia
agak berat juga mulai cerita disini. rasanya di bagian sekitar dada, jantung agak ke bawah sedikit, ada sesuatu yang selalu bikin sakit tiap inget2 dia.
rasanya itu seperti habis minum sirup lalu minum jamu. dan seperti itulah kisah sirup diantara kita berakhir. tidak ada rasa manis, hanya ada rasa pahit yang kuat di akhir.

dan dia
mungkin sekarang dia sudah tidak peduli. setiap niatan baik yg aku utarakan selalu di jawab dengan suara detak jarum jam dinding yg setia menjawab. mungkin ini cuman masalah waktu.

well, mungkin ada baiknya juga seperti ini. mungkin ini cara yang Tuhan ambil untuk memperingatkanku supaya lebih menghargai.
aku minta maaf lagi untuk semuanya. aku gak pernah sekalipun, dengan sungguh2, bermaksud membuat kamu seperti ini.
and at last, thanks for everything you had done with me. thanks for the sweetest conversation i ever had. and thanks God, for the cutest thing you had send for me. ciao ribs.

for my litt;e sister

pernah gak sih kalian kenal seseorang, yang tentunya gk ada hubungan darh sama sekali dengan kita, trus kita anggep sodara, adek sendiri, dan semau kita menganggap dia. mungkin semua itu cuman bisa terjadi di Indonesia dan khusunya di Surabaya. coba perhatikan lebih seksama ;). mungkin sebentar lagi bakalan muncul penyakit baru yang bernama Surabaya complex ;)

sebenernya aku kenal dia udah lama, cuman baru sekarang kontakan lgi. di orangnya baik, kayaknya sih, lucu, imut - imut dan sifat - sidat lain yang baik - baik yang mungkin gk bkln cukup disebutin sesuatu. emang dia kayak gitu? egak lh, cuman pengen di seneng aja makanya nulis gitu.

well, tapi emang sebagian yang aku tulis diatas ada benernya, dia emang orangnya asik abisss. dan kayaknya cantik, meski belum pernah ketemu, tapi klo dari kita berkirim pesan sebagian besar sudah kliatan ;)
semacam intermezzo gitu laaah. pengen seh ketemu, tapi gak ada waktu nih. sibuk aku :p but i enjoy the little thing cause i know it will be bigger someday ;)

apa tujuan aku nulis postingan ini? yaaa dia emang bukan pacar ya, tapi orang yang termasuk spesial buat saya ;) gak salah kan?
tujuan aku sebenernya sih cuman mau ngomong it's nice i have known you iga hastanuri hadi, ciao ;)

am i a stranger?

we started it as a friend. a very close friend. i know what's your habit. and you know mine too
we shared anything that we want. your love story, mine, and about your family
and one day the problem begun

i added a love between our relationship. i was add a love that a couple had. yes, i was love you at that time.

but now, everything was change. you started to make a distance between us. it's so funny.
if you don't want it, just said it.
it's more better thn this ya know?

my biggest question until now is : am i get wrong  if i love you?

child

sorry, if i got wrong or anything that you didn't like to will be. i'm just a child of love. so child to got right. my emotion was uncontrolled. i'm just a teenager. not too young and not too old. i'm in the middle of my growth.

sometime i hate all of your friends. i just want to feel "together". only you and me. both of us, spent the time to cross the night. not to only send a message and wait for a replied. it was a relationship, built with a faithfully and trust. not built with a lot of messages and incoming calls.

i don't want to demand you to be a girl that i want.
i know it's  too earlier. but this love was so sick.
sorry, i don't want to pushed you.
sorry . i'm too childish